this is the part of me that needs medication

i feel like taking a blade and seeing what all my veins look like

I hurt myself today,
to see if i still feel,
I focus on the pain,
the only thing thats real,

The needle tears a hole,
the old familiar sting,
try to kill it all away,
but I remember everything,

what have I become,
my sweetest friend,
everyone i know,
goes away in the end,

and you could have it all,
my empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt,

I wear this crown of thorns,
upon my liars chair,
full of broken thoughts,
I cannot repair,

beneath the stains of time,
the feelings dissapear,
you are someone else,
I am still right here,

What have I become,
my sweetest friend,
everyone I know,
goes away in the end,

and you could have it all,
my empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt,

if I could start again,
a million miles away,
I will keep myself,
I would find a way,

im very unhappy

I haven't hung out with anyone
'Cause if I did, I'd have nothing to say
I didn't feel angry or depressed
I didn't feel anything at all
I didn't want to go to bed
And I didn't want to stay up late

catch 22












the ether.. the shit that makes your soul burn slow

this week has been awesome, i didnt have to go to school at all. it was like a spring break 2 and i enjoyed it so much. its just what i needed.

yesterday was a good day.... except for one thing, my ipod reset itself ands i have no songs on my ipod anymore and i have to put 1000 songs on it again bummer but atleast i got high as shit

420?

i feel so bored with everything in my life, nothing is really exciting anymore